I had the nightmare again.
The same nightmare I had a couple of days ago. Stupid, ugly nightmare. Not random. Still in my mind.
My nani. MFG.
I can't talk about it. It's painful. And scary.
I managed to shove it aside in the morning. And seeing MFG's face made me forget everything. But I remembered in class and I cried. I hate crying in public! It's one thing to cry in front of MFG - it's another to cry in class. I couldn't get that sight out of my mind, that feeling. I wanted a hug really badly!! But I asked MFG to squeeze my hand. That helped a lot.
The whole thing went out of my mind again. For a long time! Then I couldn't help but remember it while getting back home from work. No tears this time, thankfully. But the need for a hug - intense! I really wish MFG was there - really badly...
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In other things, there's a letter that's gone viral - famously titled 'Open Letter to a Punjabi Boy, from a South Indian Girl'. When I read it for the first time, I didn't concentrate much or read each and every line, and ultimately I thought it must be a joke letter or something - you know, similar to the joke letter that starts off as "Dear Santa, I'm writing this real slow because I know you can't red fast...". I thought it was weird but pretty funny for a joke letter. I got to know later on that it was a blog entry written by a female and it was in no way a joke letter.
That changed things for me.
Suddenly I couldn't help but read each and every line again. And it felt so wrong. Just so wrong.
It felt... racist.
First things first - I'm a south Indian. I know what it is like when someone says, "So you're a madrassi?". But to be fair, every south Indian I know tends to call everybody above the Vindhyas, Punjabis. If someone forgets that the South has four states, it isn't fair to them that the South also forgets that the North has many more states than that. So, if you think that calling someone from Kerala a madrassi is racist, also remember that you calling someone from U.P. a punjabi is racist too.
Secondly, Punjabi boys and Delhi boys are not the same thing. A Delhi guy can be from anywhere. He doesn't necessarily have to be from Punjab. Equating the two shows that you never paid attention in Geography and neither does the logic part of your brain work.
Thirdly, not all Delhi guys are ignorant, chauvinistic oafs. I know there are guys who lech, and I've already ranted against guys who think that the only purpose of their life is to constantly keep hitting on girls and making them feel uncomfortable. But it's not so with everyone. I know quite a few guys who respect women and are damn sweet. And they're north Indians. Furthermore, I've also known south Indian guys who are ignorant and chauvinistic and complete imbeciles. Something tells me this behaviour doesn't exactly pertain to your geographical roots.
Fourthly, dressing style. Do we really need to go into this?? I know that loud dressing is eech!! But to contain this phenomenon within Delhi/North India (I've sort of lost track about who she's referring to by this time) is sheer foolishness. I've seen examples of really horrible dressing everywhere - north, south, west. Too bad I've never been to the east. And I still can't get over the four years of bad dressing examples I'd seen in Hyderabad when I'd lived there for 4 years. I was 12 during my last year there, but I still haven't forgotten. Wearing trousers with slippers figures most prominently in my head. Yes, I've actually seen that.
Fifthly, society free of any discrimination. This one makes me laugh! I'm lucky to have been born in a family which loves its daughters as much as its sons. Yes, lucky. Do you have any idea how orthodox people are down south? There's so much I want to write but I won't because they're not my stories and I wouldn't want to write someone else's story without at least asking for their permission first. Actually, I do have a story of my own, but it's something that I try not to think about, so that wouldn't go on this page. No discrimination? That's funny!!
Now I'm just feeling bad for this female. I don't want to go on because I'm tired. I can find a hundred things wrong with this article. It's far too biased and bitter. The one thing I was in consonance with was the whole ' All south Indians are black' thing, which actually does make me see red. But the rest is just plain unfair.
I've lived almost my entire life in the north. I feel at home in Delhi. I'm a Delhi girl at heart. And I have friends from here whom I love and who are sweet and funny and awesome. The guy I'm in love with is a Delhi guy and he's not even 0.0001% of what this female makes a Delhi guy out to be. He's awesomer than Batman, Iron Man, Spiderman and Superman all rolled into one. And amazingly sweet and very respectful. I could go on!
I know that taking offense to something doesn't always seem right to people. But I stand by what I feel. A joke letter is light humour.
This letter isn't one.
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